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Thursday, July 19, 2012

Death Looms Nearby



The father of a very close friend passed away yesterday.  It was unexpected and due to a massive stroke.  Another close friend's husband has a terminal brain tumor and just started experiencing new headaches this morning. 

I am thinking I am going to simply acknowledge these tragedies, because they are horrible and sad.  However, I want to keep myself from going into a melancholy mood or depression about these situations.  My mood DOES NOT have to be set in such a negative direction.  I need to live a life of joy and contentment with my wife and family while we are all in great health, even in the face of hardship for others who I care about.... because if I do not do so.... I will not have lived myself.   So, while I feel some twinges of guilt (which I am striving to push aside as well) about not feeling as morose as I typically might be for the friends above, I am acknowledging my care for these friends in their time of heartache, and I am there for them if I can be a listening ear or other support.  However, I am not going to allow myself to become pulled down emotionally for my own day.   I do not know if that is callous of me or if it is a healthier way for me to be, but I want to keep the feelings of contentment and joy I have been experiencing in my heart and mind.

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4 comments:

  1. BBCThursday, 19 July, 2012

    I've experienced so much death in my life that I've become hardened to it.

    Besides, it's just part of the cycle of life and I accepted that years ago.

    The one thing I'm confused about is why I'm still here, I've damn sure never lived my life with the intention of getting old.

    I guess it's just hard to destroy good genes. Luck of course helps, I haven't been shot or ran over by a monkeymoblie.

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  2. BBCThursday, 19 July, 2012

    I've set by enough death beds that it's gotten to the point where I'm willing to call for pulling the plug sooner so they can move on.

    Those machines are just handy for the medical industry to make more money with but I don't care about them making more money.

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  3. BBCThursday, 19 July, 2012

    Just think of them preceding you, they can keep the campfire going until you show up with more booze and women. :-)

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  4. austereFriday, 20 July, 2012

    seems sensible, PT

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