I am a pessimist. I have come to the realization that I truly am. I do not like being a pessimist. I want to change that in myself. It is important for me to change in this way and become more optomistic.
I envy people who have a hapy-go-lucky life and demeanor. That has not been my demeanor. I want to view each thing that I do as a time to experience joy, a time to live a great life. I do not want to cower in the fear of pessimism and the inherent worry, grief, and saddness it entails.
Becoming aware of the realities of who I am, versus who I want to be is one small step on the path to where I want my life, my emotions, and my psyche to be. It is not enough by a helluva long shot, but it is a start, a beginning.
PipeTobacco
If you wasn't a pessimist someone else would have to be to fill the void so do your part with good cheer.
ReplyDeleteActually, considering your station in life and the fact that you have it better than many I'm confused why you are always down.
Well, maybe it's a lack of nooky, I could relate to that.
A friend said....
ReplyDelete"frump's drowning in self pity. he needs to quit feeling sorry for himself and count his fucking blessings."
I'm going to suggest a book: FEELING GOOD by David D. Burns, MD. You learn to combat your "cognitive distortions" (example: all-or-nothing thinking) with logic. From preface: "Five controlled outcome studies published in scientific journals over the past decade indicated that 70 percent of depressed individuals who read FEELING GOOD improved within 4 weeks."
ReplyDeletethe first step to happiness and freedom is eliminating comment moderation.
ReplyDeletethe second step is listening to bbc, he enjoys the hand he was dealt rather than being jealous of anyone with a better hand.
I understand moderation, I just don't like doing it on my blogs.
ReplyDeleteNo point in me being jealous of others hands, like if they have a much better income, the more one has the more destructive they are.
And I don't see most of them being all that happy anyway. I'm fucking going fishing tomorrow, freedom is being on a lake even if I don't get any fish.
It was my choice in my 50's to become a bum and stop trying to make employers happy, and I'm fucking good at it, being a bum.
ReplyDeleteRead Pema Chodron's "Start Where You Are..." really!!!
ReplyDeleteThen go fishing...
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