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Monday, February 17, 2020

I was Asked

I was asked by a band member if I could be a substitute in another band two towns away from here in a concert they are having in early next month.  I am flattered that the individual asked me..... and theoretically I would like to do it.   But, it has further ramped up my stress because I would need to learn a whole array of new music.... and a new conductor's style..... and would have a lot of travel time.... and another evening away from home... when I am lately already exhausted from my running and my work at the U.  And, I am not sure of how good the members of this group are.... I am afraid I am barely a micron about a rank amateur. If they are far more professional than I am used to in my casual group... I will be embarrassed as hell to try to keep up with them. 

So, I am keyed up about this.... I want to help, but I am stressed about helping, and fear failure, and do not know if I have the energy to muster up the effort.  But thinking about saying no also makes me feel selfish and guilty.

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2 comments:

  1. AnvilcloudMonday, 17 February, 2020

    There certainly seem to be a lot of negatives in your list. We were just discussing this recently. It’s perfectly fine to say no and not feel guilty about it.

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  2. David M. Gascoigne,Tuesday, 18 February, 2020

    Go for it I say! You can do it. They wouldn't have asked you if they didn't think so.

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