My laptop has been acting up at home so I lost a few posts over the last few days. Hopefully today the post will upload. Apologies for typos, because the last two posts I lost were during my checking for typos, so I am not doing that today.
I just returned from my 5 mile run and I feel good. I am glad that is done for the day. It was enough above freezing that the trail was completely free of ice and I was able to run OUTSIDE without any worries! I know that snow is in the forecast so I will end up being back inside again, but it was so much nicer running outside.
I have made it 15 days today without a pipe. I sure do miss smoking a pipe. I, however feel I am doing well with my Lenten vow. I have not had any pipe tobacco in 15 days, which in the greater scheme of like is nothing spectacular, granted. But, it is pretty damn good for me. I have allowed myself the option to use the lozenges or the e-device up to the four times a day that I spoke of earlier. However, I really dislike both items, and have utilized them only when I have felt shaky in my resolve. They do seem to take a tiny bit of the edge off of my longing for a pipe when it is especially challenging. But, in no way, shape, or form are they "fun or pleasurable" like I have always found my pipes to be. That is probably a good thing, even though I still ponder what is the difference? It is something beyond the nicotine and beyond the rituals etc. But what is different, I am not sure.
Even though I have a bit over a month of relative "safety" in terms of Lent.... meaning I think that I want to complete my Lenten vow successfully, which will help my resolve.... I think I need to decide on my goals for after Lent as well. I know it will be very easy and very tempting to pick up a pipe after Lent, but in terms of long range goals, I would like to quit completely.... but a very large part of me does not want to quit as well.... and quitting forever makes me feel sad and nervous. I need to think this through more during the relative safety of Lent.
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Wednesday, February 28, 2018
2 comments:
I appreciate all forms of comments on my writings. I find that I miss the sponteneity of coming to read them here when they were unmoderated. I believe I wrote less due to the moderation. I have decided to adopt limited moderation. Hopefully the prior problems with unfettered comments will not arise again. Please feel free to comment as you wish about the essays I write. I will maintain those comments that offer kind-hearted and gentle opinion... be it positive or negative. The opinions of your comments will, of course, need to have relevance to the post as well.
Congratulations!
ReplyDeleteMy biggest question to myself when trying to quit, was "What am I going to do with my hands?"
ReplyDeleteIllness made me quit, in the end. Much better to do it voluntarily. :)