Today is Day 26 of my journey without pipes. It seems to be a bigger struggle for me the last two or three days. I have had intensely beautiful dreams of me smoking my pipe while I sleep. I wake up in the morning with those dreams in my memory and I admit I feel sad.
Technically, this being Sunday, the Lenten vow is not required to be held to count on the vow, so I could smoke my pipe if I wanted to do so. I have not done so on any prior Lenten Sunday thus far. But, I feel tempted to do so today. Of course, to try to get completely away from the pipe, I should not smoke today. I will see if I can hold off, but it is difficult.
I can also really sense how this may continue to be a big struggle, especially come Easter morning when the vow is complete. I really need to be better prepared if I plan to continue to refrain beyond that point. With all sincerity, I do not want to continue to refrain at the moment..... even though I damn well know I should. How do I change my mind to want to contine refraining after Lent?!?
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Sunday, March 11, 2018
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I appreciate all forms of comments on my writings. I find that I miss the sponteneity of coming to read them here when they were unmoderated. I believe I wrote less due to the moderation. I have decided to adopt limited moderation. Hopefully the prior problems with unfettered comments will not arise again. Please feel free to comment as you wish about the essays I write. I will maintain those comments that offer kind-hearted and gentle opinion... be it positive or negative. The opinions of your comments will, of course, need to have relevance to the post as well.
I remember the smoking dreams, almost better than sex, right? Haha. Tempting, I agree. They will go away in time. Hang in there, don't let the vapor of a dream get you, I know you are stronger than that.
ReplyDeleteHow's your wife doing? If you haven't bitten her head off, you are doing good.
Yes, you definitely need a plan. Although maybe you've hit the crisis point and the desire will start to lessen? WE can hope and pary.
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