More sh*t hitting the fan.
Some days, I just do not care anymore.
I never imagined my life would become like this. I thought all the love I gave, all the work I have done, all the effort I have put forth... would at least allow my later years to be relatively peaceful and moderately consistent. But, this point in my life feels like I am living in the Chernobyl exclusion zone.
The thing I no longer talk about is at the forefront, but asinine work things are also into play. And, the anniversary of my colleague committing suicide also occurred, and a j*ck*ss in the Department who did not like the fellow made a rather flippant comment about the fellow that rankled me.
And, to top it off.... I have to attend a mandatory luncheon today.... and eat sh*t I do not want to eat (or look like an imbecile by not eating). And, I did not run this morning as I was being an idiot and trying to avoid getting up to start this "glorious" day I have ahead.
The only thing I am looking forward to is going to bed this evening. The fellow's apparent mood in the image above is rather exuberant and jovial compared to my mindset at the moment.
PipeTobacco
Maybe today would be a good day to have a chat with your Dad and enjoy a graveside pipe? You don't need to do it on the exact anniversary you'd planned, do you? Just think of it as a Friday afternoon wind-down from a stressful week. And if you're going to need to eat (or pick at, appear to eat) crap at some luncheon, maybe you can compensate by treating yourself to a healthful but indulgent evening meal?
ReplyDeleteI hope that expressing yourself helped a little. Things are bound to get better. Right? 🤞
ReplyDeleteToo much shit that feels like you're swimming (or sinking?) in it. I'm sorry for the stress over your offspring; that can color everything. Thinking of you, PT!
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