Edge

 

I woke this morning feeling very edgy and out of sorts.  I had been having some sort of dream, which I do not recall many details about, but the bits and pieces I do recall were of me having/experiencing several health issues.  Amongst them included Parkinson's, prostate issues, mobility issues in my leg, and I was having great difficulty trying to eat because I was losing teeth out of my jawline.  These are all things I can recall as split second images, and I have idea the context of the dream.  But, when I awoke, I was exhausted, and it has been hard to shake off those emotions.

Even though it was the LAST thing I wanted to do this morning, I forced myself to run.  We had frost overnight, and I did not want to feel so very cold at 5:00am, so I went to the hamster track and ran there instead.  I forgot to bring my "gizmo" watch because it needed charging and I had coupled it to the charger last night.... and forgot to put it on before I went to the hamster track.  It gives me a vibratory signal to help me recognize my pacing, and I can also look at it to tell how far I have ran, even though I also bring a clicker to record loops.  

Without the vibratory pacing information, I was unsure if I was running the speed I needed to get it done with enough time to clean up and head to the U, so I pushed and pushed and pushed to make sure I would get done within the time I had (again,, I had no watch, but there was a clock on the first floor (hamster track is on the second floor), so I know when I started.  I guess I pushed myself pretty hard, for I finished the 10 miles roughly 5 minutes faster than is my typical pace.  But, I can feel the extra tiredness now, later in the morning, from that effort.  

I am hoping going to the Retiree's Cigar Group will help me turn my mood around.  What I want to do is to go home and crawl into bed and sleep away the day.  But, that never does any good.... it just makes me feel more behind.  

After the Retiree's Cigar Group, I am going to quickly swim, and then head home and bury myself in my den.... and work on the huge amount of work I need to do on the computer..... probably straight through until ~9:00pm when my wife will likely be returning home from her busy day.  

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