The Thoughts of a Frumpy Professor

............................................ ............................................ A blog devoted to the ramblings of a small town, middle aged college professor as he experiences life and all its strange variances.

Saturday, October 21, 2017


My elderly and frail Father-in-law had to be taken to the hospital yesterday around noon.  He is receiving massive antibiotics for a systemic infection.  Thoughts and we'll-wishes and prayers are appreciated.

Friday, October 20, 2017

Hoping to Keep Up Momentum

The day started well!  My alarm went off at 4:50am as usual, but very pleasantly my beloved wife was encouraging and was interested in "activity".  Obviously, that was very pleasant news for me, and we enjoyed each other's company robustly.  Afterwards we snuggled and lounged for a while.  As you can imagine, I was late in getting to the trail to run.  I did not hit the trail until 6:50 am.  And, you may also correctly guess that my pace was not really one for the record books either.... but, heck, that was ok by me. :) As I got into the run, I forced myself to pick up the pace and was still able to finish the 5 miles in just a tad under 55 minutes.

Now on the back porch, pipe in hand and the dog doing her "business" I am trying to map out my day. I am hoping to be very efficient today.  I have to get a research talk DONE so I can present it to the greater campus next week.  I want it fully finished so I can just spend time fine tuning it for the next several days.  I am trying to not procrastinate because it will just ramp up my stress to do so.  But I have a huge load of paperwork for the Department to wade through as well, and I have been neglecting my classes a bit and need to get my lectures for next week back up to snuff too.  Then I have a few Administration meetings (yawn) that are mandatory for me to attend today as well.  So, it will be very tight in terms of my work goals today.

On Saturday I need to travel across the state for another "exciting" meeting as well.  But, I am hoping if it is done early enough to stop on the way back to a very nice, very large tobacco shop that I rarely get to travel to. That should be nice... hopefully I will mostly window shop and not spend a helluva lot of money.  :)  My plan is to spend no more than $10, but sometimes..... well.... it is a REALLY nice place.  I also need to be back for Mass as well, so that may help abbreviate my shopping.

If I should be fortunate enough to keep on track today, I may also get to go see my elderly father-in-law.  Not only do I relish his company and enjoy conversing with him... I earn brownie points from my wife as well!  :)


Thursday, October 19, 2017

Thursday Thoughts

Yesterday, I accidentally overslept and did not hit the trail until 6:30am.  I only ran three miles because I had to meet my trainer at the U.  He put me through the ringer yesterday and I am sore as hell.  But he did say there was significant progress and I can actually feel my upper body is stronger than it used to be, so he is guiding me well, even though going to muscle failure is had and kind of embarrassing feeling.  When I got home from work - around 5 yesterday, I forced myself out to run the two miles I needed to get to 5 miles total yesterday.  It is not the same as doing it all at once, I know, but it was the best way I could cope with my own damn idiocy in getting up late.  At least I kept to my goal of running five miles.   Afterwards, I went with my youngest son to eat at Tim Hortons and we also had ice cream.  Then we went to see a movie together.

I just finished my five miles for today and this time it was five continuous miles like usual.  As usual, I am now on the back porch with the dog as she does her "thing".  Also as usual, I am having my morning pipe.  I have been successful in not taking work home in the evenings thus far.  It has been a little tough sometimes, where I know pressing deadlines are looming, but I think it is a good idea.  It is also forcing me to work faster and harder when I am at the U.   I am hoping I keep the quality up, though, even with working faster and in a more "rote" fashion.  I have to do that to a degree to keep up on things.  But if quality ends up suffering and I start messing some things up, that would be bad for me and for the Department.


Tuesday, October 17, 2017

Work is Work

More utter b*llsh*t is going on in the Department still.  It is more annoying than words can describe so I will leave out the details.  But, what I have decided to do is to take care of myself regardless of all the crap going on.  I have decided to STOP taking work home with me at night.  I am far, far to old to have "homework" anymore and this is a stand I plan to continue.  If things cannot get done during my normal work day, I do not give a damn anymore.  I deserve and my family deserves me being home when I am not at the U.  I also am working on not thinking about the U when I am not there as well... except perhaps when I write here.  That is a far more challenging task, but I am firmly convinced it is what I should and can do as well.

Running has gone well.  I hit 28 last week again and I have ran 5 yesterday and today.  My guide at the gym yesterday said I was making noticible progress even though he pushed me again to muscle failure. It was at a considerably higher weight and rep level though. So, I am sore as hell, but that is the way it should be I guess.  I have to keep in mind that this is the way I grow and improve my upper body strength.... even when it feels defeating when my muscles go in to failure.  He is right, I am getting stronger.


Friday, October 13, 2017

Ornery and Angry

I had a rough night sleeping because I was keyed up about the Department meeting I have to run today.  I feel ornery and angry at three people in our Department who have hurt my feelings in the past.  I imagine all sorts of ways to tell them off, and part of me would really like to do that.  I could easily get all irate and angry at them and call them out on Joell they have hurt me.  And I could call them out on how I think the lion's share of their ideas are stupid and selfish and short sighted.

But, the reality is that I know this is not how I *should* behave.  I know from my faith, but even beyond my faith, I know from my own personal philosophy of how I should live my life that I should not "attack" back at those three who have hurt me.  It is not how I want to be as a person.  I feel I am supposed to be a perso. Of service to others, and that in doing so, I have served and done a reasonabley decent job with my life.  I would love to be recognized for the good I try to do, and I have had resentments over the years when that is not recognized.  But, I have been trying to put into perspective at least for the past few years that the recognition is truly immaterial and that it is only the effort to try to do good that is of importance.  I can easily intelecualize myself into knowing that is the correct way to view things, but hell, it is some days pretty damn hard to feel this on an emotional level.

My five miles of running this morning were tough, but helpful for me.  I hated every mile this morning and would rather have been in bed, but the hard physical exertion helped me to dissipate some of my stress hormones and quell some of my anger.  So, I know it was good that I ran.  I am now on the back
Porch with the dog.  She is a good and faithful friend.  I am having my morning pipe as well.  I do not want to go into the U today, but of course I will be doing so after I shower in a few minutes.  I may see if my elderly, father-in-law is up for some
Company in the late afternoon.  If so, I would like to try to go see him.  I would greatly enjoy talking with him.  And, I would not mind having a few libations and pipes him as well, if he is of a mind to do so.

Wish me luck, please, as I head off to what is bound to be a difficult and unpleasant day.


Thursday, October 12, 2017

Wringer Washer

The fellow who is helping me with upper body strength put me through the wringer yesterday.  I do feel like an old shirt being squeezed through the tumblers on one of those old washing machines.  Mate be will get me to eventually have muscles like Arnold Schwartzenhanger?!?  Hah!

Ran my five miles this morning, nothing amazingly different, but I am glad they are done!  Today is probably another long day and I won't likely return home until perhaps 8pm tonight.  There is unfortunately so much stuff that has to be done at the U this time of year especially with being Department Head.  I am thinking that in about a week and a half, things should quiet down to a more "normal" pace... I sure as hell hope so.

Just doing my pipe and puppy routine on the back porch before I head to the U.


Wednesday, October 11, 2017

52 Degrees & Gully Washer!

I awoke to a steady rain with intermediate gully washers the morning.  Was I deterred from my run?   Almost.  I pulled the covers over my head and hit the snooze button when the alarm went off a 4:50am.  Then I hit the snooze button again.  After the second snooze alarm, I told myself "The hell with it!  The day is going to be too damn busy with work and I won't likely be home until 7pm, and I sure as hell know I won't want to run then."  So I got up, put on my sweats and a wide brim baseball hat to keep rain off my glasses and a knit cap to cover my ears and headed out the door.

There was a steady, heavy rain the whole 5 miles, and twice the downpour was especially intense (gully washer style).  But, I did it!  I ran the full 5 miles.  When I was finished, I looked like a drowned rat, but I felt happy that I forced myself to have enough gumption to get it done!

Now, on the back porch, the usual things are happening.  I am having a morning pipe.  The dog is trying to do her "thing" although she is hesitant and mincing around in the yard because she hates the wet grass.  If I quickly go shower now I can head to the U for my upper body workout and then get to work.