The Thoughts of a Frumpy Professor
............................................ ............................................ A blog devoted to the ramblings of a small town, middle aged college professor as he experiences life and all its strange variances.
Friday, November 28, 2014
Thursday, November 27, 2014
Wednesday, November 26, 2014
Damn, Damn, Damn
I have to keep in mind that this is a process. I have to keep in mind that by the beginning of the fourth week of Lent last year, my refraining from my pipe 6 days out of 7 was actually quite easy. I have to keep in mind that this is what I WANT for myself. I have to keep in mind that I WILL EVENTUALLY feel better and more content. I have to keep in mind that this is good for me.... good for my brain.... good for my body.... good for my mental stamina..... good in showing I will damn well do what I set out to do. I have to keep in mind that I do not want a plant to control me. I have to keep in mind that I am better and stronger than a damn plant.
I cannot begin to describe how much I want a pipe at the moment.
Today's Pipe Goal = 0
Yesterday's Pipe Goal = 0; Consumption Yesterday = 0
Tuesday, November 25, 2014
I am going to take another stab at becoming the pipe smoker *I WANT* to be. This pipe smoker will be a fellow who will have a pipe or two when he has had a few drinks, but for the remainder of the time will be pipe tobacco free. I was 100% successful with this when I adopted this exact scenerio during Lent last year. There is no reason why I cannot be successful with this all year round. It will just need me to be consistent with my efforts.
Wish me luck!
Today's Pipe Goal = 0 bowls
Monday, November 24, 2014
On Your 91st Birthday
I have been thinking about my father a great deal the last several days. Today is my father's birthday. He would have been 90 years old today. At one level it *is* so very long since he has been a physical presence in my life, but in the same vein, he has been a mental/emotional/philosophical presence in my life every day. With he now being 91, it is so odd to think about. I miss him so very much. I wish I could have him here physically today.
It is ever more striking how I can see in myself more and more ways in which I am very much like my father and other ways in which I am very much like my mother. The characteristics I have that are especially like that of my father include a general quietness to my demeanor and a rather contemplative personality. Physically, my teeth are like my father's. My eyes are much like my father's and my ears and forehead are very similar to that of my father's. Of course, my enjoyment of pipes and pipe tobacco is something I learned from my father as well.
I will be traveling to the other end of the county today to visit my father and mother's grave site. Even though it is quite cold outside (below freezing), I am planning to sit at the grave site for quite a while and talk to (with) my father on this his birthday. I am also planning to take with me, one of his favorite pipes that I inherited from him. I shall smoke that pipe while I am visiting with him at the grave site.
I miss you so very much, Dad! I wish you a very Happy Birthday.
Sunday, November 23, 2014
Am I a Ram or Goat?
At Mass today, the following was part of the first reading:
"As for you, my sheep, says the Lord GOD,
I will judge between one sheep and another,
between rams and goats."
The ram is a symbol for Christ taken from the Old Testament. The ram represents Christ because it is the leader of the herd and also because the ram is a sacrificial animal, reminding us of Jesus' sacrifice on the cross for our sins.
The goat usually represents those who are condemned at the Last Judgment. This use is taken from the parable of the sheep and the goats in Matthew. By extension, the goat may be used to represent demonic forces.
It gives me pause to think... am I more like a "Ram" in my life or am I more like a "Goat"? I am hoping I am more like a Ram.
Saturday, November 22, 2014
Today marks the 2,260th day in a row that I have walked (sometimes jogged) each and every day for approximately 5 miles. It is an endeavor that now is very much a habit and is second nature to me. It has been very helpful for me physically (normal BMI) and emotionally (helps me to reduce stress. I am glad I do this, and I am glad I have the motivator of being able to get such a large number. Even though the number plays a less crucial role these days as the habit is established, I still like the idea now that I have just passed 2250 and also moving towards a fun milestone number of 2345. I hope I keep up my consistency.