The Thoughts of a Frumpy Professor

............................................ ............................................ A blog devoted to the ramblings of a small town, middle aged college professor as he experiences life and all its strange variances.

Tuesday, August 23, 2016

Back Porch

I am sitting on the back porch after a long, but productive day at the U.  I am enjoying a bowl of "sagebrush" tinctured burley leaf in my pipe at the moment.  Sagebrush is a blend that has a rustic sort of odor, a little like a campfire with a hint of vanilla.  I am letting the dog out to do her "business" while I sit here and relax some.  

Running (jogging) three of my five miles in the early morning is quite helpful for me.  Not only does it relax me, in the morning it also helps me feel more alert as well.  And, even if nothing else goes well when I get to work, I still feel decent that I accomplished that run.  

I went across town before I came home today to visit the cemetery.  It was what would be my parent's 70th wedding anniversary.  On the journey there, I passed by my old high school, and looked at the track and football field.  As a chubby, fat kid, I remember the track being a source of embarrassment and shame for me.  In the mandatory gym class I had there when I was 13 (freshman year, and yes I was on the young side), I remember feeling like a huge failure because I was so big and so slow that I failed the coaches requirement for the class that we run a mile on the track in a certain time that I could not meet.  It was my worst high school grade I ever received.  For a lot of years, I shied away from doing any sort of "sport" because I was such a failure.  It took a helluva lot of years for me to figure out that I did not need to accept that failure as a definition of who or what I was physically.  When I looked across that track today, I consciously realized just then, how, these many, many decades later, I now could accomplish that mile on that modest track, and do so 
fairly easily.  It does not make me any better of a person than I was back then... I wish I would have realized this back when I was younger.  

In many ways, it is a similar story to when I lost 100 pounds.   A lot of folks treated me differently.... and in some ways that felt so, so very odd.  At one level, I was happy they noticed the work I put in to losing the weight, but it also made me feel quite an "outsider" so-to-speak.  I was and felt like the same person I have always been when I was heavy, and I had the same feelings inside, but just because my outside had changed, they treated me like a different person in many ways.... some good, but some ways were not.  I especially felt uncomfortable when a lot of folks started to make "fat" comments about others in my presence. It gave me more insight to what some were undoubtably saying about me out of ear-shot when I was heavier.  

People are who they are whether fat or thin, non-athletic or athletic.  It is just a strange feeling being who I am and getting to experience both groups.  

But, not to be too maudlin, I did want to end this by saying that looking at that track today allowed me to realize AND let go of some of that shame I had been keeping inside me all these years.... Even though much of it was subconscious.


Thursday, August 18, 2016

It has been a while

It has been a while since I posted.   Basic information:  the trip to the big city was a lot of fun.  Had some amazing seafood and even had some adventures as well.  Came back well rested.  Then the proverbial sh*t hit the fan and. I have been dealing with last minute crisices at work including two adjuncts who quit at the last minute.  Oh well.  Still running usually three miles of my five a day, still pushing through as best as I can.  Still smoking the damn pipe, too, however.  More to follow as I get back to just the normal bull.  


Monday, August 01, 2016


I have all my work done, and I think I am ready for my research talk.  Hopefully it will be good and then we can  play in the big city After that is done for a few days!


Wednesday, July 27, 2016


I broke down and bought two ounces of an aromatic pipe tobacco today.  It has been a few months since I did so, having kept only to simple tobacco.  Not really showing movement towards quitting  with this purchase.  But it was only two ounces and should add a bit of pleasant aroma to my pipe for the next three months or so if my current consumption stays at its new lower level as it has been the last several weeks.  I put a very small pinch atop of my regular pipe tobacco to improve the quality.  

I am determined to stay at my lower consumption level or go even lower, however.  


Monday, July 18, 2016

Tripping Along

Just doing my same old thing I guess.  Nothing much new to report here at the moment.  No new insights or revelations.  


Thursday, July 14, 2016

Just Stuff

The dentist went well, fortunately, and the technician even commented on how my teeth had little staining.  She asked me if I had drank less coffee.  The reality is I drank just as much coffee (a lot) and tea ( a lot) and smoked a lot of pipes.   But I think I may have been better at overall brushing.  I probably brush 6 times a day now up from four times a day before.  I do not know if the hygienist knew I smoked a pipe because out of politeness I never smoke my pipe on the morning of my visits.  She would have given me hell, probably if she knew. 

I am just spending more time than I would like with b*llsh*t paperwork crap I have to do.  It is tiring and I am sick if it,  but hope to have a clear desk tomorrow for at least a few days.  

Planning on camping tomorrow night.  It has been a helluva long time since I went camping.  I am hoping it will be a lot of fun!  


Monday, July 11, 2016

Damn Dentist Appointment

Feeling a bit disgruntled in that I have a dentist appointment in the morning I had forgotten about.   I hope it goes smoothly.   It always agitated me.  I work hard to keep my teeth in good shape so hopefully it will be easy.  But it always worries me.