The Thoughts of a Frumpy Professor

............................................ ............................................ A blog devoted to the ramblings of a small town, middle aged college professor as he experiences life and all its strange variances.

Tuesday, November 21, 2017

Just Doing

Things have not changed much since my last post.  Still my FIL is in a nebulous state.  Still I am feeling really sad, scared, and depressed.  I still do all that I am supposed to... work, running, family life.  But I feel like an empty shell.  I am scared of the day-to-day living.


Thursday, November 16, 2017


My FIL is doing "ok" physically.  We are still unsure how much he wants to strive to regain his strength, so continued thoughts and prayers are very welcomed.

For me personally, I have hit a low emotionally.  I am still going through the motions of all the crap I am supposed to do.  But, especially starting yesterday with an idiotic issue at work, I have been so, so, so very sad and upset and I do not know how to dig myself out of it.  It is really a bad situation.  I have been crying.  I have been sleeping more, I have no appetite.  I have no joy.  I cannot seem to shake it.  I know it has been only a day.... but it has hit hard.  I want to go crawl in a hole and vanish.  Or, I want to leave and never look back.  I feel paralyzed because I cannot figure out a way to shake myself out of this.  It is so hard.  I am trying to put on a brace face of "normalcy" but it is so, so hard. I feel emotionally in agony and I do not know what to do.


Tuesday, November 14, 2017

Stone Removed

My FIL had his surgery to have his kidney stone removed yesterday. The surgery went well, but his mood has been very bleak the last several days.  He should be fine now, but has to work to get his strength back.  But, I am not sure he is going to try
.  It saddens me.  I hope he works hard and tries.  He can have everything back if he chooses to now.  Hopes and prayers are still great fully appreciated.


Thursday, November 09, 2017

Relative Calm...

My father-in-law seemed stronger yesterday.  He was talkative and alert, so that seems wonderful and he ate pretty well.  He still has a lot of things going on and we are not sure of the outcomes, but it felt that things were stable and slightly improved.  Thoughts and prayers are still greatly appreciated!!!

It was 22 degrees today during my 5 mile run.  Yes, even though I have not talked about it of late, I have still kept to my 28-30 miles of running every week.  It was cold today, but it was still. I've to be outside.  Today, however, we are anticipated to get slushy, wet snow.  And, with the cold enough temperatures expected tomorrow morning, which are anticipated to be around 20 or so, it may be too slippery for me to run outside tomorrow.  So I have to prepare to head to the indoor track and run my 50 laps to get my 5 miles in.  It is definitely not as fun as outside, but it will be safer if it is as slippery as it may be.

We have a dreaded and argumentative all damn day long retreat (meeting) tomorrow.  It is a horrible and hurtful experience I despise.  I am going to indulge in adult libations at its conclusion to lick my wounds and to drown my sorrows.


Tuesday, November 07, 2017

Still Unclear

It is still unclear about my father-in-laws health.  He pulled out his feeding tube and that made everyone upset and frightened.  He is eating "better" at the moment but we are unsure if that will be sufficient for him to recover.  More tests today.  Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers.


Thursday, November 02, 2017

Still Hoping

My father-in-law is still doing poorly.  There are reasons to hope that he can have his condition improve, however.  We as a family are praying for him and visiting him and trying to keep his spirits up.  Any thoughts, prayers and well wishes are greatly appreciated.


Tuesday, October 31, 2017


My elderly father-in-law is unfortunately worse.  It appears his systemic infection has taken off again.  Prayers and thoughts and well wishes would be appreciated.