Tired

This has been a very emotionally exhausting morning.  Nothing new (in a bad OR good way) has happened.  I am just feeling emotionally overwhelmed by most everything. I do not want to do ANYTHING other than sleep, where I can have dreams and memories of good things.

It may be the time of the semester, or it may be the time of the year (March is the month where a sizable majority of deaths of family and friends has occurred over the years..... my Dad, my Mom, several uncles and aunts, pets, at least three friends.).  I do not want to work today.  I feel spent up and used regarding teaching today. The same, if not more is how I feel about research today.

But, if/when I eventually do retire, who am I then?  I do not really know.  It frightens me.  Will I have any identity?  Who am I now, though?  Does it matter if I transition from nothing to a retired nothing?  

This is about all I can muster up to write today.

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