Overview & More

 Not the longest post by any means, today.  But... at least an update:

• Overall, the Easter weekend was acceptable.  The days were overall fine.  I would suggest that the kid I have the anxiety about, behaved acceptably ~80% of the time, and the remaining ~20% was only mild in terms of less than desired actions.  
• So, overall, it was about as successful a time as I could have reasonably hoped for.  As would be expected, the lack of trust/faith that the above would have happened kept me on edge with anxiety through all three days.... but living with the anxiety was far, far better than the potential alternative of having things go very negative.  I would love to have a more joyus, carefree Easter like we used to have 5+ years ago.... but this was better than I feared.  I do keep praying and hoping for a return to trust to occur and I hope that some day it may happen.    

• Now that the above major stressor has passed, I can try to regroup my own thoughts and try to strive forward:
• I want to work to experience an Easter (technically a post-Easter) feeling/mindset of joy and hope for my and my wife's day-to-day.  
• I want to re-establish the positive routines in my life.  With the mix of the foot issues I had (plantar fasciitis associated with gait challenges I developed due to the damn plantar wart I had which took a long time to get rid of), the pressures of preparing the cadre of researchers for their talks a week or so ago, and formidable anxieties of the Easter weekend.... my stamina to maintain the good things I try to do for myself did tend to go "sideways".... I ran less, I had a great deal of worry and important support I provided to my wife during her knee injury, I slept less, I did not maintain as well organized a plan to keep up on grading, test development, and other classroom management.  I am hoping to wrangle all of these items and more back into shape.
• Our last concert season of the year (we do not play in the Summer) is starting rehearsals tonight.  I am hopeful for some fun new music to play. 
• With the continued improvement in my wife's knee due to therapy, I am hopeful she too will be feeling good again too and we can plan more our hopes and dreams for Spring and Summer in more concrete ways.
• I look forward also to Summer when I will be able to again be ON-TIME with the RCG friends.    

• Overall, what I am hoping to foster is a time of calm, tranquil, peaceful day-to-day times with routines re-established in a more predictable fashion to allow for more time to spend in care-free ways with my beautiful wife.  

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