Out....

One of the things I have come to realize during the last day or two, even though I should damn well already know this.... is that.....

• In order for me to NOT feel "edgy" and "out-of-sorts" I need to have a game plan that I follow each day.
• Now, hold on.... yesterday I said I WANTED UNSTRUCTURED TIME, UNPLANNED TIME
• Yes, I did.... but I meant it more that what I want is to KNOW what I NEED to accomplish in a given day..... so I can get it DONE.... and THEN I can have the rest of the day be flexible and free and UNSTRUCTURED.
• This is why I gravitate towards doing my exercise first thing in the morning.... to get something important and hard OFF MY PLATE.
• This is why I have managed to have the vast majority of my classes be scheduled for as early as I can in the day, so that I can accomplish that needed work.... and then it is OFF MY PLATE.  

So, with the above ideas in mind, it is far more understandable to me how and why I felt ornery and out-of-sorts with myself the last few days.  I did not follow the above.... I DID NOT get required things off my plate as quickly as I could..... instead, I hemmed and hawed and delayed doing many of the required things..... and this left them LOOMING in my mind until I eventually got them done.  But, the LOOMING nature of it was exhausting to me!

So, even though I WANT MORE UNSTRUCTURED TIME..... I have to realize that to GET UNSTRUCTURED TIME in a way that feels wonderful.... I have to better think through and PLAN to get the essentials off my plate first.

Seems OBVIOUS.... but after grades were submitted, I just sort of meandered.... and yet still had things that needed to be done.... and that had me feeling edgy all the time because I delayed getting things done so I could RELAX.

So, I am now off to go to a candy shop for some things needed for Christmas..... including filberts in the shell.  None of the grocery stores around here have filberts in the shell this year, and I do not know why.  But, as soon as I buy two pounds of these hazelnuts.... and also some of their specialty candies (for my wife).... I will be heading over to the Retiree's Cigar Group!

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