Not Sure What To Do
Well, I have been away a while mostly because of computer/internet problems. But that seems to finally be resolved now. I could have tried to post from work, but work has been pretty hectic with a grant writing deadline, so that didn't work out too well.
With that said, I now have a choice to make. My wife is going to be away overnight going to attend a service for a relative who died a while ago. The location is far away and I am staying home to "mind the store" so to speak. Now, with a free evening, I probably have two options... 1) relax at home, do nothing, drink some, or 2) use this time to really focus on work related things I *could* get done to get myself ahead of schedule a bit. It is a decision that I am not sure how to make. Either would be fine, but I am not really sure which is what I want to do. Here are my thoughts:
1. Relaxing at home is of course a good thing to do for me. But relaxing without my wife is not particularly fun or enjoyable. Don't get me wrong... it is "ok" of course, but it is not as fun by any stretch of the imagination. Doing nothing is of a similar vein.... it is "ok" but without my wife, it is in some ways bound to feel like wasting time. Drinking too.... I enjoy drinking... but drinking alone is not particularly fun either. My elderly father-in-law, my preferred drinking buddy is not available as he is going to the same service.
2. Working... while it has the potential to get me ahead and also has the potential to make next week a lot less hectic... hell, it doesn't seem very fun to work late into a Friday night. Don't get me wrong... by and large I really do enjoy my job. But, come on, priorities that I have set are such that I really strive to have a balance between work and non-work.
I am sure most of you are yawning and perhaps annoyed by my post today, but it is really something I have been thinking about. Neither route seems particularly great. But, I should pick one of the two above. Other options.... calling up a friend to do something (drink, play cards, fish)... doesn't seem to be in the cards either as most of my other friends are in pretty much in a hectic stage of the year as well and are more likely than not, not available. I could work on something I want to do, like further clean, organize the garage, or do some needed household "honey-do" tasks.... but they feel pretty much the same as my "work" work.
I will figure it out... either by not deciding or deciding. But any decision seems unexciting. I am very much a creature of habit... I feel most happy when things are reliable, predictable, and routine. Then I can add something extra on top if I want to. This weekend is a significant departure of routine. I would normally go visit my elderly father-in-law, have a few drinks and pipes with him, then come home to my wife, often times go and swim with my wife and some of our kids, then have a pleasant dinner and just sit around and chat and watch tv or go to a movie.