To Be Better
Before Maas this weekend I went to confession, and my sins were the same as is unfortunately the norm for me. I confessed to instances where I lacked patience that I should have had with various family members. I described my sins of getting angry at people I should not have gotten angry at. And, I described again how I found myself unable to be forgiving of the two people who hurt me horribly at work about two years ago. This last sin in particular was especially problematic for me because I had thought I had made progress in actually forgiving them. I was unfortunately wrong. The penance I have been told to do to help me overcome this sin was to say and contemplate the "our Father" Prayer each time I thought of the two of them and their hurt if me. This far, today I have done this eight times. I am thinking it may be helpful for me in forgiving them. It has been able to help me focus on my faith instead of my pain, and I think that may be a part of the process. I shall be continuing to do this with each thought of them. I am feeling hopeful.