Comments on Comments

Unfortunately, it seems that commenters prefer to comment on their own comments and snipes at each other rather than create a dialogue where people can actually learn and grow.  However, the following comments are ones that were stated yesterday that I can comment upon.  Even though both were likely meant to be caustic, I can and choose to take both as earnest:

Leslie stated:
".....P-Frump, can you please bring back the wet beard and angst? These "bagel" and "I have nothing to say" posts are frightfully dull, even for you......"

Unfortunately, I likely am dull.  I wish that were not the case, but in my own psyche, I do believe that to be true.  Yet, the change in my posts during the last few is not related to any sort of change in my inherent "dullness" quotient, for it has remained stable.  Instead, I have drifted from an emotional state of great worry, sadness, and fear into an emotional state that perhaps described as being "null" or non-existent. 

ALT-F stated:
"Is the Pscyholgoy Expemirent oevr now Herr Prosefsor? Is taht why teh tone and cadence of yuor posts has drtfied itno the banal?"

Likewise, my banality is not something that changed.  Unfortunately, I am likely banal and will always be so.  With a rather emotionless frame of mind at the moment, the tasks of day-to-day living take up most of my time.  I can assure you that there was no "psychology" experiment.  The emotional outpourings to which you reference were all very intensely real, and deeply heartfelt.  My wife and I discussed our options very intensively for weeks leading up to the time of my peak emotional writings.  What we have decided at this time is to take route of "semi-stasis" about the issue.  In a nutshell, this means that neither of us felt wholly comfortable with the riskier option were were both contemplating, and have decided at this time to not venture forth with the riskier endeavor, while at the same time keeping the option to revisit it at any time.

Also, ALT-F, I did not ever learn of your reason for the semi-randomized, inverted spelling order.  If I were to hazard a guess, it may be in response to my occasional typographical errors and/or inversions that I have on this site.  If so, I apologize that my errors are grievous enough for you to want to make such a punctuated statement about them here.   In my day-to-day work at the U, I am always needing to be a careful editor of my work and my writings.  I have always taken the position that my blog posts can be a bit looser.  I do not purposefully try to incorporate errors, but neither do I spend great lengths of time in any form of editing process.

Also, in another of your comments yesterday, you suggested my choice of image for the post was puerile.  I can grant you that it was indeed so.  Yet, I see nothing inappropriate about a rather childish frame of reference if the mood strikes, as long as it is not hurtful or harmful to others.  I suspect the image I have chosen for today is especially silly and childish.  Under normal circumstances, I would have NEVER selected this image as I rather dislike these sorts of pet/statement images that are all over the place on the Internet.  However, this one captured my attention, and I would be interested to see how you rate it on your own internal scale of puerility. 

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 As stated above, I feel as if I am in a state of no emotions at this time.  It is modestly better than feeling despondent, sad, or angry.  But it isn't a whole helluva lot of an improvement.  Without trying to ruminate on it all day, I am simply going to try to do things and get involved with things that I have found enjoyable previously.  I will see how a course of action, instead of a course of thought leads me.

PipeTobacco

Today's (Tuesday's) Goal = 0 bowls  

Monday's [3/4] Goal = 0 bowls
Actual consumption (Monday) = 4  bowls

 Walking Day 1626 / SOPS Day 0