Dichotomy

 

Brief today.......

• Ran 9.4 miles (~15 km) this morning.  The "stormcloud" of my mind when I awoke was focused on the hurt I and my wife felt about the drama I no longer talk about here.  However, I hoofed and pounded my body as fast and hard as I could during this run.  It was beautiful outside.  I kept trying to steer my mind into thoughts that could turn around my mindset.  I prayed the rosary, I listened to music, I thought about pipes, I looked at the beauty around me on the trails.  I dissipated SOME of my anger and hurt.  But, not all of it.  I had hoped I could get rid of all of it.
• I told my wife yesterday as we were discussing the hell I cannot talk about.... that I do not know why I am even trying to stay away from smoking my pipes.  What good is it doing me?  She was taken aback by my statement.  I think she feels similarly however, and that is why she is not even trying to do anything to control her diabetes other than her growing list of medications.  
• I have been working diligently today to get all that I could possibly get accomplished for next week's classes done.  I have turned in an exam to my secretary, I have ALL lectures up to snuff, I have written to my students a) guiding them on how to succeed now that they have a full week under their belts, I have graded and recorded the first assignment they turned in yesterday.  

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