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Day 339

Just to keep the record up-to-date, today is the 339th day in a row that I have walked consecutively without missing a day. It has transformed my body to a normal BMI, and it has given me energy. I even am jogging a significant part of my walk each day. Yesterday, for instance, I jogged 50% of the walk, this morning, I took a much longer walk than usual, but still jogged about 33%.

I am still frustrated and feeling down mostly because my wife is in a bad mood. When she is in a one of these moods, she is unhappy and negative about everything. Of course, everyone has these sorts of moods from time-to-time. But, with my wife, the issues all stem from her work and co-workers... and my wife's manner of dealing/interacting with work and her co-workers.

You readers do know that I have my ups and downs and problems that happen to me as well. Everyone does. But one thing that I can say fairly well is that I typically work toward and find a solution to my problems. With the situation with my wife, these particular problems that rear up for her each and every year, are ones where she does not seem to like any of the MANY different choices she could make to improve these conditions with her work and co-workers. This is the frustrating part:

1. She does not like how the situation is currently.
2. She does not like the possible plan "A" to change the situation.
3. She does not like the possible plan "B" to change the situation.
4. She does not like the possible plan "C" to change the situation.
5. She does not like the possible plan "D" to change the situation.

Since she does not like any of the above plans to change the SITUATION, what I try (gently) to suggest to her is that a) she cannot control what others do, b) she cannot especially control administrators, c) that there is too much "drama" where she works, and d) some of the co-workers she "hangs around" with foster a very negative attitude that I feel predispositions my wife to feel bad... the above are "heard" but not really absorbed if you know what I mean.

When I also try to suggest that the items given in the above 4 (a-d in the previous paragraph) are beyond her control, this does not set well with her. And, additionally, when I further suggest that this means she really only has the option of changing her own perceptions and feelings about the situation, it makes her sour further.

So, basically, I am in a quagmire of sadness and grouchiness because my wife is in a non-communicative mood at the moment. I will likely be trying to change my own perceptions and feelings by reading more and letting myself be enveloped in the world of fiction books.

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