The Thoughts of a Frumpy Professor

............................................ ............................................ A blog devoted to the ramblings of a small town, middle aged college professor as he experiences life and all its strange variances.

Tuesday, March 19, 2013


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Just Sad

Not much to say at the moment, other than the title.  It sums up where I am at emotionally at the moment.  I feel overwhelmed.  I feel like I am missing out on life.  I feel like I am nothing.

What would make me happy?  Sometimes that is even hard to describe in any tangible way.  I guess the only way I can think of to describe it at the moment is that I want love.  I do get love from my family, please know that I feel that love.  But when I am at work, or by myself, or driving alone in my car, or even while walking this morning.... I feel a deep, horribly strong and resonating sadness. 

The only two things I can think of to perhaps get this sadness to leave are to spend more time with my family or to sleep.  And, unfortunately neither is an option for me at the moment.  It will be a very long, hard day.

PipeTobacco

8 Comments:

Blogger BBC said...

Me thinks you take on too much and just need time for yourself in your work shop. Or a fine camping trip.

Tuesday, 19 March, 2013  
Blogger Beth said...

The best remedy I know is to say gratitude prayers, even if it's for something as simple as hot water for your morning shower. When you focus on gratitude rather than what you think you do not have, it helps make you aware of what you DO have. Feel the energy in the sun, the land, the plants, and pull it into your own heart. If that doesn't help, Prof, you need therapy....but I've said that many times before.

Tuesday, 19 March, 2013  
Blogger Leslie said...

You ARE missing out on life, and that's because you are mean and controlling and you shut off comments!

Beth is very good at the nice, new-agey let go and let god hugs not drugs stuff, but I think you need to cut loose and party your balls off.

Peace out, P-Frump!

Tuesday, 19 March, 2013  
Blogger PipeTobacco said...

Leslie:

I truthfully am not trying to be mean. I am just trying to keep this site more peaceful for my own nerves.

I just am not in a state of mind where I am able to deal with arguments and fighting... it is too overwhelming for me at this time.

So, I apologize if you feel I am being mean. Very sincerly, that is not my intent.

PipeTobacco

Tuesday, 19 March, 2013  
Blogger harry said...

Bullshit.

By "moderating" comments you force yourself to read them all, nice or nasty.

You can certainly choose to not further read any particular persons comments if you think doing so might contribute to your ...angst.

You don't have to read or respond to any comments AT AL if you so choose.
Care tell explain why you rejected my comment?

Wednesday, 20 March, 2013  
Blogger PipeTobacco said...

Harry:

I am not sure what comment of yours you feel I rejected? It was not intentional if I did so. It may have simply been that I did not end up publishing it yet. Many comments are still awaiting moderation.

Sometimes when life becomes too busy (like now), I do not get around to looking at some of them quickly.

PipeTobacco

Wednesday, 20 March, 2013  
Blogger austere said...

Hey PT, been a while since you posted. happy Holi! We're celebrating spring here, what about you?

Tuesday, 26 March, 2013  
Blogger Castallan said...

For G-ds sake suck it up cupcake. You need professional help. Take it from someone who knows. I am dieting from terminal cancer, and Effexor has change my entire outlook. I wake up blessing every day.

Sunday, 31 March, 2013  

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