The Flavor, the Texture, the Relaxation

I still am not sure why now at day 81, I am having a resurgence of pretty damn strong yearnings for a bowl of pipe tobacco.  This ebbing and flowing of the desires for such are something I did not expect.  I thought there would be a consistent, gradual decline in the desire.  But, some days I have (surprisingly) little or no thoughts about my pipes.  However, the last several days.... every day has had deeply strong yearnings to smoke my pipe. 

Currently, it seems what I am missing so much are three things.  It seems to NOT really be the nicotine.  Even though it is quite sporadic now, I have occasionally used a lozenge or even an e-device.  Neither is particularly pleasant, so their use is growing more and more sporadic.

But, what I miss from the pipe and pipe tobacco is this:

1.  The "Flavor" -  somewhat of a misnomer, but there really is something to the lingering odors and flavors of the pipe tobaccos that I am missing. 

2.  The "Textures" - I have been ruminating on how I miss the chalky, palpable texture of the pipe smoke in my mouth or in my nasal passage. 

3.  The "Relaxation" - there is something very quieting to me (perhaps to my mind) about pipe smoking.  I miss that.  The nicotine from a lozenge does NOT accomplish that in any way. 

Those are the things I am wanting right now as I patiently try to continue to refrain from picking up my pipe. 

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