23 Months Without
Today marks my completion of 23 total months without indulging in my beautiful, friendly pipes and pipe tobaccos. Perhaps I should be jumping up and down having become free of the "evil habit". But, I am utterly ambivalent about this milestone. I should figure out a way to internalize and feel the same sense of rancor, anger, and judgement that modern society feels about the indulgence in pipe tobacco.... but it seems I am not yet able to find a way to feel these feelings myself.
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Kind sir, from your posts here I don't think you are "free of" your love of pipes and pipe tobacco. Your pipe-smoking dreams show us your ideal, free of social pressure to conform. You seem to be in the odd spot of being a "non-smoking pipe-smoker." More than that, you still see your pipe collection as a collection of old friends and happy companions, not as a collection of foul devils eager to re-enslave you into their service. Deep down, perhaps even subconsciously, I suspect you know that you will return to your pipes someday, and that when they tempt you they are not calling you to evil and ruin, but rather are calling you to rediscover a missing part of yourself.
I'm so fecking proud of you..
I congratulate you on reaching this milestone.
Non-smoking pipe smoker seems to be an accurate description, indeed, Pat. It is a conundrum I think about a great deal.
Thank you, JackieSue! I appreciate that a lot. I wish I felt some sort of pride or accomplishment it it, myself. To me, it just a feeling of ambivalence. And, that frustrates me a bit.
Thank you, Anvil! I appreciate the well wishes.
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