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Long Day

My mother noticed some unexpected weight gain late this morning. She had gained roughly 5 pounds. This could only mean she was retaining fluid, a possible indication of heart issues. Calls all around to nurses and physicians all lead to the same conclusion I knew was coming... it being Friday... she was instructed to take additional diuretic and additonal potassium and see how it goes over the weekend.

Thus far she seems to be holding her own well. Yet, even with this being so, I feel edgy and all out of sorts because I know how perilous that stability can be. I had fooled myself into anticipating consistant, day-to-day routine.

I am still trying to work the idea of "I can only change myself.", but today has been a hard one to have success with on that score. Over the course of the day, I was gruff with a handful of different people. For that I am sorry.

I am going to force myself to read at least a few chapters in a long languished detective novel. Then, I am going to stand outside in my pajamas in the snow and smoke my pipe.

PipeTobacco