Hot Day & Weekend
We are anticipating weather all weekend long in the mid 90s. The heat is tolerable and not that big of a deal to me, but the sun can be rough. I unfortunately burn easily so I have to be careful when the sun is intense.
I had a really difficult time last evening regarding my pipes. I came very close to filling a bowl and indulging. I am not sure why yesterday was so hard. Perhaps it is a mix of factors:
1. It was an especially long and intensive day at work, and I have always associated those days with the joy and pleasure of having a pipe when I return home late in the day from work. The pipe was a reward of sorts for persevering.
2. My wife being away on a trip perhaps was a part of the reason. Having her away makes the pattern of the day-to-day become more disheveled and chaotic.... and I believe that chaos is another common time when I have sought comfort in a pipe.
3. Perhaps Father's Day has something to do with it too. It is of course coming up this Sunday. Both my father and my father-in-law were pipe smokers. Thoughts of them perhaps have been more prominent. My father passed away 25 years ago, and now with my father-in-law having passed only a few months ago, it is a confusing time.
4. Interestingly, the above had me realize as well that (presuming I make it), this coming Father's Day will be the first Father's Day for me where I am not smoking a pipe. Seems a bit odd to put it in that way.
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What am I happy for today?
1. I am looking forward to swimming later today at the community pool.
2. I am looking forward to my wife's return in a few days.
Kind of pathetic, I guess. At the moment, I cannot think of other items.
PipeTobacco
6 Comments:
My Dad was a pipe smoker and cigar smoker for many years. The GP told him to stop smoking for health reasons (he was severely asthmatic)and he did so a couple of decades ago. Have you been advised to give up the pipe tobacco? If your life is so miserable without your pipe, couldn't you smoke it occasionally as a treat rather than a regular habit? I don't know the reasons why you gave up your pipe but maybe you would feel just as down if you did smoke again. I hope you enjoyed your swim at the community pool. How's reading your book going?
Your tendency to organize and create lists, etc. dovetails well I think into your efforts to pick up your spirits. So don't think of the number of things you are grateful for. Two on a list is as important as 10 things on a list. In my mind, it is that you found something to be happy for.
Keep chugging.
hey, that's nice stuff to be happy about.
i just finished reading dead souls by gogol. some people call it a russian don quixote. maybe reading don quixote would pick up your spirits.
Billy... what happened to your blog? It is not listed in either of your names anymore.
I smoked a pipe for years but quit smoking in the late eighties. I still have a pipe and tobacco beside my computer and miss the hell out of the comfort of pipe smoking. What could be more relaxing than a pipe and a glass of wine? In my late seventh decade I have considered taking it up again - but my wife...
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the Ol'Buzzard
Pipe - I missed your question regarding the plant post a week or so ago. The plant is a Lady's Slipper", a native orchid here in Maine. They are threatened and thus protected. The one in the image is one of 7 I found blooming in the preserve across the street. Population is down this year. Not sure what that means.
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