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My mind feels quite a bit like the title of this post.... jumbled chaos.  I feel utterly exhausted.  I feel extraordinarily anxious.  I feel dread.  I feel gloom.  Today has not been a pleasant day from the moment my feet hit the pavement.

• Overslept through my damn alarm.  Got to the track 1/2 hour late.  Ran faster than I wanted to, and stayed longer than I wanted to in order to get the damnable, full 10 miles in.
• I am growing royally p*ss*d at the individual I no longer talk about here.  This person is engaging in mind-bogglingly stupid choices that will ultimately remove about 20 different, very positive opportunities this person is eligible for. I want to yell, holler, curse, scream, and try to get this person to see and recognize logic.  But, I stay silent, for it does absolutely no damn good at all.
• I am feeling quite significant pressure about a cadre of my research students and their upcoming talk at a regional research meeting.  They are being a tad lackadaisical and it is ratcheting up my own stress.  
• Today was my especially long lecture day to boot.  I am now exhausted.  I am famished, even though I ate every damn crumb of food I had.

*IF* I had my druthers.... and if I did not have my wife needing me to be a responsible husband... if I did not have to get up to run another damn 10 miles in the morning before heading off to work, and if I didn't already have a full plate of work I have to get done tomorrow, which will take all damn day........

If none of the above were true.... I would like nothing more at the  moment than to go get either a six pack of some heavy & hoppy IPA style beer... or perhaps a pint of some pleasant bourbon or whisky... then go home to my office... grab 2 or three of my favorite pipes... grab a pouch or two of the most robust burley leaf I can locate in my stock.... 

... and smoke my pipe and drink myself into a gentle, hazy, sloppy mindset. This would pleasantly distract me from the stressors, the aggravations, the anxieties. 

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