Derailed by the Saturday Train
At first glance, you can see at the bottom of this post that I FAILED in my day's goal yesterday, and smoked my pipe two times. Yet, for some reason, I am not particularly angst ridden about it (This is rather especially unfathomable to me, for I usually am a very harsh critic of myself.). I am seeing a pattern here. The pattern is that I tend to not succeed at my day's goal in pipe smoking when I have less structured time. Ever since I began this journey, I have had failures on Saturday, the most unstructured day of my week. I also had failures around the four days at Christmas.... also highly unstructured days.
I find this information quite valuable to me in understanding myself better. And I think understanding more why I do what I do will help me figure out ways to instead of doing simply what I do.... I will be able to develop skills where I do more of what I want to do.
I accept the failure, but I am trying to learn from it and figure it out to help me fail less in the future. And, I have to keep in mind also that I only smoked at most, 25% of what I would have typically smoked if I had been just "doing what I do". This old dog is learning something, I guess I could say.
Today's (Sunday's) Goal = 0
Yesterday's [1/5] (Saturday's) Goal = 0 bowls
Actual consumption (Saturday) = 2 bowls