Who Am I?

I took an on-line quiz a while ago and here are the findings:

I often feel tired or have low-energy
I find myself getting angry, irritated, restless, or frustrated easily
I think I’ve lost my sense of humor
I often feel ashamed
I lose my temper easily
I get into a lot of arguments
I have lost interest in people and things I used to enjoy
I feel isolated
I often feel completely overwhelmed by life
I often feel guilty,
I often feel that no one cares about me
I often feel that my life is meaningless
I frequently feel sad, emotionally empty, or just can’t bring myself to care about things
I sometimes cry for no reason
I think about death frequently
I have trouble concentrating or remembering things
I have trouble making decisions or choices

The above are obviously not good.  I very much dislike who I am and how I am at the moment.  The above are NOT the way I wanted to become.  I hate this.  I detest this.

I have to screw up the energy and courage and stick-to-it-iveness  to fight back against this b*llsh*t.  I have to treat the above assinine thoughts and feelings like an enemy that needs to be annihilated.  It seems impossible to do, but I have to fight back against those feelings so I can feel content and at peace again.  I miss who I used to be.  I want to be him again.

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I frequently feel tired or have low-energy

I find myself getting angry, irritated, restless, or frustrated easily

I think I’ve lost my sense of humor

I find myself spending a lot of time at work as a way of avoiding doing other things

I drink too much or abuse drugs or prescription medication

I take unnecessary risks (such as driving too fast, extreme sports, or unprotected sex)

I often feel ashamed

I don’t take good care of myself or go to the health care provider even when I know there’s something wrong

I lose my temper easily or have been verbally or physically abusive to someone close to me

I get into a lot of arguments

I have a history of broken relationships

I can’t seem to stay at a job more than a year

I have lost interest in people and things I used to enjoy (such as work, activities, friendships, and sex)

I have sleep problems (either falling asleep, getting up early and not being able to get back to sleep, or oversleeping)

I feel isolated and avoid spending time with family and friends

I often feel completely overwhelmed by life

I often feel guilty, that no one cares about me, or that life is worthless

I have lost a lot of weight recently without trying

I am frequently late to work, school, or appointments

I frequently feel sad, emotionally empty, or just can’t bring myself to care about things

I sometimes cry for no reason

I think about death or killing myself

I have trouble concentrating or remembering things

I have trouble making decisions or choices

People describe me as cold or aloof

I have few or no close friends

My children are afraid of me

I have frequent headaches, chronic pain, or stomach trouble that doesn’t seem to ever go away and doesn’t respond to ordinary treatment.

- See more at: http://www.toughtimessd.org/get-informed/symptoms#sthash.u64Kzd8k.dpuf

frequently feel tired or have low-energy

I find myself getting angry, irritated, restless, or frustrated easily

I think I’ve lost my sense of humor

I find myself spending a lot of time at work as a way of avoiding doing other things

I drink too much or abuse drugs or prescription medication

I take unnecessary risks (such as driving too fast, extreme sports, or unprotected sex)

I often feel ashamed

I don’t take good care of myself or go to the health care provider even when I know there’s something wrong

I lose my temper easily or have been verbally or physically abusive to someone close to me

I get into a lot of arguments

I have a history of broken relationships

I can’t seem to stay at a job more than a year

I have lost interest in people and things I used to enjoy (such as work, activities, friendships, and sex)

I have sleep problems (either falling asleep, getting up early and not being able to get back to sleep, or oversleeping)

I feel isolated and avoid spending time with family and friends

I often feel completely overwhelmed by life

I often feel guilty, that no one cares about me, or that life is worthless

I have lost a lot of weight recently without trying

I am frequently late to work, school, or appointments

I frequently feel sad, emotionally empty, or just can’t bring myself to care about things

I sometimes cry for no reason

I think about death or killing myself

I have trouble concentrating or remembering things

I have trouble making decisions or choices

People describe me as cold or aloof

I have few or no close friends

My children are afraid of me

I have frequent headaches, chronic pain, or stomach trouble that doesn’t seem to ever go away and doesn’t respond to ordinary treatment.

- See more at: http://www.toughtimessd.org/get-informed/symptoms#sthash.u64Kzd8k.dpuf

frequently feel tired or have low-energy

I find myself getting angry, irritated, restless, or frustrated easily

I think I’ve lost my sense of humor

I find myself spending a lot of time at work as a way of avoiding doing other things

I drink too much or abuse drugs or prescription medication

I take unnecessary risks (such as driving too fast, extreme sports, or unprotected sex)

I often feel ashamed

I don’t take good care of myself or go to the health care provider even when I know there’s something wrong

I lose my temper easily or have been verbally or physically abusive to someone close to me

I get into a lot of arguments

I have a history of broken relationships

I can’t seem to stay at a job more than a year

I have lost interest in people and things I used to enjoy (such as work, activities, friendships, and sex)

I have sleep problems (either falling asleep, getting up early and not being able to get back to sleep, or oversleeping)

I feel isolated and avoid spending time with family and friends

I often feel completely overwhelmed by life

I often feel guilty, that no one cares about me, or that life is worthless

I have lost a lot of weight recently without trying

I am frequently late to work, school, or appointments

I frequently feel sad, emotionally empty, or just can’t bring myself to care about things

I sometimes cry for no reason

I think about death or killing myself

I have trouble concentrating or remembering things

I have trouble making decisions or choices

People describe me as cold or aloof

I have few or no close friends

My children are afraid of me

I have frequent headaches, chronic pain, or stomach trouble that doesn’t seem to ever go away and doesn’t respond to ordinary treatment.

- See more at: http://www.toughtimessd.org/get-informed/symptoms#sthash.u64Kzd8k.dpuf