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No Words

Not many words from me yesterday or today. I simply feel very sad. This weekend will be the first major holiday since my mother's passing. Easter is normally a celebration of the excitement of life and of spring. It does not feel worthy of a celebration this year.

The grief I feel is both acute and chronic. I miss her voice, I miss her smile at me, I miss the way we could could have fun, casual, deep conversations about silly things. Mostly, I miss HER.

God has not found me worthy of receiving any sort of message or sign from Her so far. I am suspecting He will never grant me this comfort or this wish.

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