Today is Valentine's Day. It is a day about love. Romantic love like I have with my wife is the most obvious form, but a broader love is important and valuable to think about as well. I so love my wife. I so love my kids, I so love my family.
There really isn't much else of any importance for us to do on the time we are on Earth. We should love one another. It isn't always easy. But it is always worth it.
I hope that today my emotions stay more positive. Yesterday, was very rough, and I was a basket case for part of the day. My drive to the U was filled with wracking, deep sobs of despair and gloom as tears streamed into my beard and moustache. It was all very foolish, but it was also very, very real.
My anxiety all stems from a resistance on my part to changes. Being very much the stable, stay-the-same kind of person I have always been.... has served me quite well across these many decades. Yet, at the same time, my dislike of change, my fear of change, my strong emotional resistance to change can (and does) hinder me as well. My wife and I are trying to make an important decision that involves change. I am not at liberty to describe the details at this time, but the decision we make will set us on a new course for our future. This is true regardless of if I resist change and stay the same, or if I accept change and all the anxiety it induces in me. Both paths could be wildly wonderful and exciting. Yet, I fear not choosing the best path.
It is all convoluted and difficult to deal with. Basically, I am fearful of making this decision, regardless of which decision I make. My wife feels similarly.
If you do not understand my image above, it is part of my convoluted thinking. The hearts represent Valentine's Day, and the coins represent "change". In my odd sense of things, I find this a humorous image to post. But, my humor is rather odd, or so I have been told. My wife has told me that often.
Today's (Thursday's) Goal = 0 bowls
Wednesday's [2/13] Goal = 0 bowls
Actual consumption (Wednesday) = 0 bowls
Walking Day 1607 / SOPS Day 2