Over 10 Years

I will have to recount to get the exact number, but in my rough estimate, I do now know that I have now completed beyond the full, 10 year mark in constantly walking (and now running) five miles a day... each and every day, never missing a day!  I have done this when the weather has been atrocious, I have done this when I have been sick.  I have done this every holiday. 

It is roughly 10 years and 25 days thus far.  Eventually in the next week or so, I will re-post the exact number of days on that day. 

It feels pretty shocking to me to realize I have made it this consistently.  I am glad I have done this. 

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Flight of Fancy

With the huge "Mega Millions" jackpot set to be 1.6 Billion dollars, I broke down and bought one "easy pick" ticket.  Usually, I am not a gambler of any sort, but I thought I *could* spend $2 for allowing me an afternoon/evening flight of fancy. 

After buying the ticket, I thought about what it is that I would do *if* I won.  My thoughts can be summarized as follows:

1.  I would pay off my home.

2.  I would have my family move into a rented Townhouse for about 3 months while I had the kitchen and the bathrooms remodeled in my home.

3.  I would retire from the U.

4.  I would purchase a good, full-coverage health care plan for my family.

5.  I would rent a small/quaint office space, and use it as my "office" to go to for my "job" which would be to attempt to write a publishable novel.

6.  I would set up college tuition/room and board accounts that would pay for family and friend's kids to attend a 4-year school (I imagined in total 10 of these accounts).  They would somehow be given anonymously to them. 

7.  I would look with my wife for a small, but pleasant condo to purchase in either New York City or in Chicago.

8.  I would look with my wife for a small, but pleasant condo to purchase somewhere in a fun city in Florida.

9.  I would hire a maid service to clean our home three times a week.

10.  I would consider finding a class to teach as an adjunct at some college/university that is NOT the U from which I retired.

11.  I would have a financial planner help me determine a normal, comfortable income that I could yearly income I could then count on for the rest of my wife and my lives. 

12.  I would make a financial plan to allow my wife and I to take a trip every three months to a fun, exotic location.

13.  I would buy my wife and myself each a new, modest vehicle and sell our old vehicles.  

14.  With the likelihood that there would still be quite a bit of money left over, I would then set up with some legal help an anonymous foundation of some sort to be able to donate money to a variety of good causes. 

The above are my flights of fancy.  I have not yet looked to see if my lottery ticket one... but obviously the likelihood is virtually zero.   Yet, the two bucks I spent on the ticket did give me the freedom to dream a bit.  And, dreams are not all bad.

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Meandering Weekend

On Friday, for some of my service work with the U, I ended up traveling across the state to attend a meeting related to a state-wide educational initiative I am involved with.  This is the first meeting of this type that occurred since Lent ended (the previous one occurred several months ago during Lent).
 When I have gone to this meeting over the years, I have always had the opportunity (pleasure) to stop in that town on my journey back home to a delightfully traditional, old-school tobacconist.  It was always a highlight of the trip, because while the meetings were valuable and important, the drive time was not the most exciting. 

Well, at the previous meeting of this year, I was actively involved in my Lenten vow, so I steered clear of the tobacconist.  But as this meeting approached last week, I was bedeviled by thoughts of whether or not I should stop by during my travels this time.  I saw four basic scenerios:

1.  Avoiding the place like the plague so as to assure I would keep my vow.
2.  Stopping in just to look around, and examine all the beautiful pipes and tobaccos in a "reminiscent" sort of fashion.
3.  Stop by and allow myself the option to indulge (by bringing a pipe along) and sampling a bowl of some interesting type of burley leaf they had (most tobacconists, including this one will encourage fellow pipe enthusiasts to sample the wares). 
4.  Stopping by and buying a new pipe and restarting the hobby.

Well, as I mentioned in my last post, I have been having a strong return of cravings to smoke my pipe the last few weeks.  I realized that #1 above would be best for my goals, but I was really, very strongly leaning towards #3.  I have also been thinking of my father and my grandfather's upcoming birthdays next month.... and my tradition that has been going on for decades since my father passed away of smoking one of my father's pipes that he gave me on HIS birthday, and of smoking one of my grandfather's pipes (that my father gave me) on my grandfather's birthday.

What will I do on those dates?  This will mark the first time their respective birthdays have come about since I started to refrain.  I have been thinking about those two dates quite a bit and trying to figure out what to do.  I am still not sure what I will do when the dates arrive.

Well, to make a long story short, in the above choices for the tobacconist.... I ended up choosing pathway #2.  I purposefully did not take a pipe with me to encourage me to by pass the place on my way home.  But I also knew I could potentially buy a pipe and some tobacco there (#4).

I ended up stopping, though, and looked around and reminisced.  The pipe tobaccos were pleasant olfactorially to me.  and the new pipes were beautiful to behold.  Talking with folks there, it was very nice to discuss various pipes and tobaccos, but I did not mention that I was refraining.  When asked if I would like to sample a leaf, I simply stated I did not bring a pipe with me today, but maybe next time.

It was very nice to visit that store.  It was very nice to have the discussions with the shop keeper.  Overall, it was a pleasant experience.  I am not sure if it helped my resolve any.  But, as I enter into my 9th month of refraining, it has given me some things to think about.

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Why I Have Been Away

I apologize about being away so long.  Unfortunately, it has been a rough time and I have not had a lot of extra energy.  Here is a brief summary:

1.  We have experienced the death of another family member.  This time it was an aunt on my wife's side of the family.  She was a very cherished member of the family, and it has been difficult.

2.  Work difficulties have been significant.  A nice friend of mine was "pushed out" and has left the U.  It is a result of his "incompatibility" with the "U's" horrendous administration.  The loss of this fellow was a great disappointment, even though I had predicted it long ago as he was far too good for the U. 

3.  I have felt tremendously strong yearnings for my pipes.  I have NOT given in, but it is disheartening to have the cravings return with a vengeance after 3/4 of a year away from the pipe.  It has taken a surprising level of energy to refrain.

I am working at resolving my emotional reactions to the above three items as well as a few other things.  I must be making some sort of progress as I have eked out this small modicum of time to at least give a brief update.

I am hoping this initial effort indicates my returning to regular posting.  Prior to this, I have been mostly just trudging through the day other than reading a few comics.

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