Em-phasis On the Wrong Sy-la-ble
To start off a few brief nods to several people in the recent past who have commented on my site:
Lawrence... yes, I have found your comments most enjoyable and helpful! Thank you.
Austere... you know how lovely I find your comments, your blog, and your poetry. Thank you.
Mapiprincesa!... as a newcomer to my site, I have found your comments delightful and helpful in guiding me to a more peaceful center. Thank you!
Berin Greenbear - sir, I have enjoyed your comments about the briared life. I wish I knew how to contact you or at least if you had a blog to read so that we could compare this interest. Thank you!
Kelly Jene - the national writing month effort does seem like a helluva lot of fun to me too. I hope that I can keep up with the goals. I will be looking forward to reading your efforts! Thank you!
Lynette - Thank you! I enjoy debating politics, yet part of me hesitates of late in the tangible world, for it is so easy to bruise egos. As I get older, I get more and more disappointed in how we are traveling as a nation.
Shanita - Don Quixote is a noble, yet deluded fellow. I still see many similarities in his persona and my own, much to my chagrin. Thank you for your very kind words!
Zirelda - your kindness has touched me immensely. Thank you!
G@P - you are a friend sir, and I delight in your comments. Thank you!
Andrew - you are amongst my oldest friends here in the Blog world. I wish our talks and discussions were more frequent and in depth like they had been previously. But, please know I enjoy and appreciate your comments. Thank you.
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I am sitting here eating a large bowl of chocolate pudding upon which I have added a scoop of French vanilla whipped cream and also a scoop of chocolate whipped cream. It is oddly soothing to my tired soul this evening. The day has been a long one and I have been struggling to work exceptionally hard and efficiently to catch back up to and be on track with work and grading and research like I was a few weeks ago. The mutlti-week foray into sadness has muddied my efforts so that I feel again like I am on the precipice of a downward spiral of chaos in my efforts. I am pulling in the reigns so to speak and trying hard to ignore my emotions and my moods of sadness. If I ignore them, I can get back to having the rest of my life outside of my emotions and moods be even keeled. Even though it does not eliminate the sadness, the rest of my life is more pleasant so it helps out in the "overall" affect.
I want to drink deeply from the joys of life, and I am not sure how to return to that position. It seems I used to live life with far more gusto than I currently do, and I want that to change. I want to once again feel the deep, moving passions in my day for all that I wish to do. I am on a mission to try to find that old part of myself again. Although I currently go through the motions, and do most of the things I used to do that made life feel so rich and so full, it is like the old phrase, I think I am putting the emphasis on the wrong syllable (read that EM-pha-sis, and sy-LA-ble).